I am a middle-aged South African woman, living in Johannesburg. I began writing poetry towards the end of May 2010. I love animals – sometimes more than people! I am back after a break. Thanks for still being here, if you are! Missed you! xxx
I know for men, we are conditioned from early on not to show weakness – so there is humility and ego involved,
but with the way our world has become, I would say that probably crosses gender boundaries now as well.
Showing weakness we will be taken advantage of. And sometimes even with God we will try to prove
ourselves to him instead of trusting him to take care of us.
You are right, x. I have caught myself trying to bargain with God, but stopped as soon as I realised what I was doing. I have been praying for a stronger faith. My problem is that I cannot bring myself to pray out loud, even with a small congregation, or even in a LifeGroup. I know it is for HIM and not for me. I feel so guilty and ‘ashamed’ of this. I can’t seem to be able to break this barrier, if it is important for me to do so. I know that God understands, but the people don’t.
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06/09/2015 at 2:25 pm
I know for men, we are conditioned from early on not to show weakness – so there is humility and ego involved,
but with the way our world has become, I would say that probably crosses gender boundaries now as well.
Showing weakness we will be taken advantage of. And sometimes even with God we will try to prove
ourselves to him instead of trusting him to take care of us.
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06/09/2015 at 2:59 pm
You are right, x. I have caught myself trying to bargain with God, but stopped as soon as I realised what I was doing. I have been praying for a stronger faith. My problem is that I cannot bring myself to pray out loud, even with a small congregation, or even in a LifeGroup. I know it is for HIM and not for me. I feel so guilty and ‘ashamed’ of this. I can’t seem to be able to break this barrier, if it is important for me to do so. I know that God understands, but the people don’t.
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