.
New meds
leave me LIGHTheaded
turn my head
and my brain lags
behind
back to bed
wake up a new (wo)man
no diff ‘tween meds
and drugs – one okay
the other not
like smoking pot
for pain
suffer say the buffs
you’ll get wasted
‘wasted…’ haha
what am i now
s-l-e-e-p
.
©Denise G Allen, 02 March 2013 07:51
.
blinded by love
no
hormones led me
up the garden path
to see through sightless eyes
visionary-wise
but now
my rear view mirror
shows me the horror
makes it clear
what wasn’t there
naïve trusting without guile
believing
when all the while
hatred in disguise
masqueraded as love
in my fool’s paradise
.
©Denise G Allen, 23 January 2013 09:35
~~~
My body feels drought and rain
My soul feels joy and pain
But some live in the clouds
Behind chemical shrouds
Afraid to display
Heartache and grief
In the mistaken belief
That emotion disclosed
Is weakness exposed
~~~
©Denise G Allen, 07 January 2013 08:23
.
All life was suspended
And the earth stood still
I was encased in a void
Of neither heat nor chill
Breath and blood froze in time
And nothing intruded
In that world of mine
.
©DGA 24 October 2011 06:10
~~
The pain was more than I could bear
The grief beyond belief
I had to deaden the feeling
Go to a place of healing
To stop my heart bleeding
~
I lay on the bed and closed my eyes
And I felt my skin tingle
As if a thousand needles
Were brushing me lightly
And holding me tightly
~
As the warmth of darkness enfolded me
God in his mercy defended me
Safely sheltered me in His love
Shielded me from more heartache
And watched over me ‘til daybreak
~~
©DGA 12 October 2011 02:28
…
What will it be today,
Frumpin’ lumpin’ jumpin’ Jehosephat?
Twisting, turning, cramping, screaming…
Wanting freedom,
Heavy as a large salmon
In the bottom of the boat,
Threshing, thrashing,
Or heavy as lead,
Dead?
As a slab of meat,
Oven ready for the meal?
Or will you show your delicate side,
You Jezebel, born in hell,
Lead me up the garden path
Only to punish me with pain
Again!
…
©DGA 29 September 2011 06:41
Mist on the Water
Mist on the water
Forest on the rise
Two canoes together
Desire in your eyes
White water river
Swollen by the rain
Thunders over rocks
Drowning out the pain
Remember when we cut
Mixed our blood together
Blood brothers we would be
And lovers forever
*
Photo with kind permission of http://bythecanonviewfinder.blogspot.com/
©DGA 08 August 2011 19:08
I WILL FLY
When I’m back on my feet again
I’ll be free of pain
Be able to walk
Visit the park
Sit in the dark
Count the stars in the sky
And know that I’m whole
In both body and soul –
I will fly, I will fly
Image: terryhicky_photobucket.com & stoneteller_photobucket.com
©DGA 16.06.2011
Songs of Joy
Songs of joy
Myriad bright butterflies
Dancing in fields of flowers
I suppress
Sounds of sorrow
Sobs of sadness
Bending my pain
In submission to His will
Image: Psalms4All-Photobucket.com
©DGA 08.06.2011 07:13
Control
This Love’s an Illusion
Don’t cause confusion
Our love’s an illusion
And the hurt is too much to bear
I have this pain
And it’s killing me again
And my heart is so sore
I can’t be with you anymore
If this feeling is love
I’m not willing to have
My heart torn asunder in my breast
The pain is too much
And the hurt that your touch
Engenders in my soul
Prevents me from giving you control
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©DGA 19.03.2011 11:58
