Adeeyoyo's Blog

I write what I feel…




New meds

leave me LIGHTheaded

turn my head

and my brain lags


back to bed

wake up a new (wo)man

no diff ‘tween meds

and drugs – one okay

the other not

like smoking pot

for pain

suffer say the buffs

you’ll get wasted

‘wasted…’ haha

what am i now



©Denise G Allen, 02 March 2013 07:51


Rear View Mirror


blinded by love
hormones led me
up the garden path
to see through sightless eyes
but now
my rear view mirror
shows me the horror
makes it clear
what wasn’t there
naïve trusting without guile
when all the while
hatred in disguise
masqueraded as love
in my fool’s paradise


©Denise G Allen, 23 January 2013 09:35


Obscuring the Pain


 The pain was more than I could bear

The grief beyond belief

I had to deaden the feeling

Go to a place of healing

To stop my heart bleeding


I lay on the bed and closed my eyes

And I felt my skin tingle

As if a thousand needles

Were brushing me lightly

And holding me tightly


As the warmth of darkness enfolded me

God in his mercy defended me

Safely sheltered me in His love

Shielded me from more heartache

And watched over me ‘til daybreak


©DGA 12 October 2011 02:28


(un) Lucky Leg

What will it be today,

Frumpin’ lumpin’ jumpin’ Jehosephat?

Twisting, turning, cramping, screaming…

Wanting freedom,

Heavy as a large salmon

In the bottom of the boat,

Threshing, thrashing,

Or heavy as lead,


As a slab of meat,

Oven ready for the meal?

Or will you show your delicate side,

You Jezebel, born in hell,

Lead me up the garden path

Only to punish me with pain


©DGA 29 September 2011 06:41


Mist on the Water

Mist on the Water

Mist on the water
Forest on the rise
Two canoes together
Desire in your eyes

White water river
Swollen by the rain
Thunders over rocks
Drowning out the pain

Remember when we cut
Mixed our blood together
Blood brothers we would be
And lovers forever


Photo with kind permission of

©DGA 08 August 2011 19:08


This Love’s an Illusion


This Love’s an Illusion

Don’t cause confusion
Our love’s an illusion
And the hurt is too much to bear
I have this pain
And it’s killing me again
And my heart is so sore
I can’t be with you anymore

If this feeling is love
I’m not willing to have
My heart torn asunder in my breast
The pain is too much
And the hurt that your touch
Engenders in my soul
Prevents me from giving you control

©DGA 19.03.2011 11:58